night falls

Tonight I watched the sun set through the reflection of one window onto another.  When I looked up and saw this little glimpse of secret sky it occured to me that life hands us hidden gems all the time…we just have to look beyond what we already know is there.

All night I’ve been wanting to write the perfect post about this 
but I think photos 
an amazing song 
and a beautiful poem
do the trick.

Goodnight, my loves.

 

Waking at 3 a.m.

Even in the cave of the night when you
wake and are free and lonely,
neglected by others, discarded, loved only
by what doesn’t matter—even in that
big room no one can see,
you push with your eyes till forever
comes in its twisted figure eight
and lies down in your head.

You think water in the river;
you think slower than the tide in
the grain of the wood; you become
a secret storehouse that saves the country,
so open and foolish and empty.

You look over all that the darkness
ripples across. More than has ever
been found comforts you. You open your
eyes in a vault that unlocks as fast
and as far as your thought can run.
A great snug wall goes around everything,
has always been there, will always
remain. It is a good world to be
lost in. It comforts you. It is
all right. And you sleep.

-William Stafford.

Song of the Week: Learning to Fly

It's Sunday afternoon.  

I just filed my taxes and feel like a huge weight has been lifted.  

The air is finally warm enough to open the windows and let the light shine in, though I also have my space heater on because my darn feet get so cold.  

I have been slowly sipping coffee from Pyrex for the last four hours and my neighbors are mowing their lawn.  

The smell of gasoline and grass spill in with the breeze.  There is something about this, as opposed to my favorite music blasting, that is so comforting and grounding.  

It's perfect.

I watched Eat Pray Love again last night, because I am a sucker for anything involving personal transformation and travel, I happen like Julia Roberts and James Franco, and let's face it-Javier Bardem is just plain dreamy.  I've seen this movie a few times now and it always touches on my emotions in different ways.  This time it was the fear, apathy and internal struggle that got to me the most, and I didn't cry once until she gets on that boat at the end.  

If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you. 

-Elizabeth Gilbert

Life can be such a tightrope walk sometimes.  Maybe all the time if we're brave enough.  I guess the question is, are we waiting and hoping to get to the other side, do we give up because we don't know what else to do, or do we intentionally dive head first and trust that our wisdom will catch us?  I guess therein lies our song of the week :)

Take your pick:

A soul in tension -- that's learning to fly
Condition grounded but determined to try. . .

Peace
Love
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